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Hi there,

see the changes in this blog? Actually, I do know that not many people are reading my blog, but still, I keep updating it whenever I am free. This is because, I see this as a place where I can share and/or rant anything I want, without the fear of offending someone or disturbing others. So, I will continue with this blog disregarding the amount of viewer ship. That's me. I will also keep it open to view for everyone, so that people can be motivated by me sometimes. HAHA, doubt the possibility though. HAHA LOL.
Currently, I am at a period of the year where my urge for study is the highest! Yes, it is 3 weeks away from school starts. Damn it, I am so bored at home that I actually look around for something which I can study for. Totally not me at all.
Anyway, I reflected a little just now, and realise that I have made the CORRECT friends this time round in UNI. FRIENDS is really an important factor, especially to me, it will have huge influence on me, though I do not really want to admit it, but ya.

Back in my SECONDARY SCH, regardless of being in the upper or lower secondary, I have motivating friends who were able to push me to go further. Really, if not for them, I doubt I will be able to do that well for my O's. Many always say that they could have done better for O's, since it is easier as compared to A's. But I would not say so, but I really did my best and that is the best I can do.
Then in JC. Hahahaha, what else can I say? We ourselves, see and admitted each other to be the bad influence of each other, and yet refuse to be separated. We still remain sticky as glue in UNI. HUGE JOKE, earning ourselves a title in school, HJMs! Thanks. Well, let's move on together and work hard for exams!
Finally, at the last stage, we found some NEW friends, thanks to adrian, our sociology lecturer. And the NEW friends are really competitive, openly though, something to cheer about. What is more important is that they take studies seriously and are able to excel. I really have to salute them. Of course of their presence, I realise I am doing badly or am doing below average for everything. Thus, pushing me to work harder the next round. I will really work hard for the second year, and hopefully will be able to EXCEL!

To all my friends out there, THANK YOU FOR APPEARING IN MY LIFE, you may or may not influenced me positively, but everyone of you, shapes my teenage life.

HP

RESULTS IS OUTTTT

Well, the result was out last Friday. Having a full day of work at papa shop, I only managed to check my result at night! I was so nervous, clicking links after links to get to my result page. And without warning, my result just BOOM, in front of me.

First, I saw the obvious bar of the most right, which shows all passed for all the units. Okay, moving on, I saw my highest and lowest score! Damn it, why did I score so badly for IBM! Post-victor symptom! LoL. But then when i come to think about it, I realise how much effort had I put in. Seriously, as compared to other units, IBM had the longest prep time, and yet I put lesser effort in! Oh well.. Score well deserved!

Next, it was my highest score. I was expecting STATS to be my best units, but it turns out to be MATH! I have gotten a score I never think I will ever get after SEC SCH! Damn it, what have I done?! Yes, happy as I shld be, I'm disappointed w my stats. So near yet so far!

ECONS was another disappointing unit. But i blamed it on myself. Picking the right qns is part of the exam skills, which I have yet to acquire then. If only I didn't change the choice of qns, maybe i will did better?

SOCI, I feel that I did okay. Given the fact that I only know it is about human relationship at this point, the result was satisfying!

With some regrets, I'm movin onto the second year. During this period, I have been thinking of which units to take. I'm totally fickle minded. I tend to change my mind after hearing one piece of info. And I will have many considerations for taken one unit, and all those consideration are not that impt actually. Haha. Anw, after much struggle, I have decided to take the following units, though I will be alone for some, who cares:
MARCO
MARKETING
MMGT SCI MTD
POA

yes, most of my units are quantitative. And I took my one A LEVEL(two years) and one UOL FINAL EXAM(one year) to realise that I'm not an art person! See the price I'm paying. Thanks.

And seriously, JC ECONS was so not ECONS when I think back now. Yes, we are writing ECONS essay with SOME ECONS concepts in it. But it seems that one will need to wrap that concept into a hamper, making it pleasantly presentable. I prefer UNI ECONS, where u only answer straight to the qns. No intro and flowerish language is needed. Jus the concept! LOVE IT!

But even with that, takin up MARCO scares me a little. I'm not sure if I can cope w it! Seriously, ESP when I heard others failing for that unit! Oh god!

Going for breakfast, time to stop!

HP

I blog often, cus I have alot to say! But I don't like to use the social media, cus it will 'disturb' others! Haha it's just me alright! :) fussy and hard to attend to!

HP

I used to LOVE HAHA ALOT! That's why, before the hiatus of MBC, I supported HAHA during the HAvsHC challenge! I hope that he will win, and he did, winning in almost every round.

But then, after a few months, I CHANGED! Now, I prefer HONGCHUL! Hence when the continuation of the challenge comes back, I was hoping that HC could win in the final few rounds though he had lost the challenge! I can see myself putting my hands together, praying for HC to win! I was like cheybye~ LOL! Haha I'm so crazy!

No matter what, I LIKE THE TWO
OF THEM! CHU WA HEY YO! <3

HP

People and shows that filled my past few weeks..

My past weeks is complete w the following: RUNNING MAN, Infinity challenge, Noh Hong Chul& Haha, I am a singer 2, Lee Chong Wei, PSY, phantom, and a little of BIGBANG?!

Omg, all of the above except for one are from Korea! Tian ah, to think that I refused to acknowledge their existence when I was in secondary school?! Haha what a JOKE!

Ps: Taken the photos down online, all credits to the owner. Pls don't come and quarrel w me! Thanks!

Not to forget my fave girl 21st and FTS consultation style of bday celebration!! <3
By celebrating 21st w these people, I feel that we are meant to be friend, at least for this lifetime! Looking forward to still seeing each other when we enter workforce officially!

SILVER MEDALIST FOR BADMINTON MALE SINGLES

Woo for the first time ever in 2012 Olympic, I watched the badminton FINAL LIVE!

It was a well played match, it was so exciting that I can't whatsapp and watch it at the same time. Almost had an heart attack! JOKE! With the GOLD MEDAL at stake, none of them was able to chillax a little.

Being a Malaysian, I supported LCW. Not because of the ice cream or the possible holiday, but just because u are a true blue Malaysian! U made almost all Malaysian have some kind of expectation during Olympic; if not Olympic will just be another foreign countries sport events. When the shuttlecock falls out of the court, u were disappointed! But we were sad because of u were! We knew how close it was, we knew u have improved! Though u didn't win in the end, u played well! Good sportsmanship shown throughout the whole game! Well done! Your attitude earn u alot of support worldwide! Being able to endure till the end even with all the Chinese's cheering overwhelming the hall, FANTASTIC BABY! Thank you for taking up badminton since 5, and thank you for representing Malaysia at international competition. Thank you!

ps: u earned alot in return, and your name is known in every corner of Malaysia, So no gain no loss! :D

I was kinda upset upon the lose, but the result is set right? Why quarrel people? No matter who one supported during the match, we should not be bombarding that person's wall w lots of hurting comments. It is a sore loser act pls. Being patriotic is one thing, being barbarian is another! Feel so fuck up when people just write whatever they feel on social media. Seriously~

Two more WEEKS!

It's August! CAN'T HELP BUT TO THINK ANOUT MY RESULT!

Recalling, I doubt I wrote very for sociology, damn it! But it was so hard! Even our top student said so. OMG, I'm just hoping for a pass, PLEASE! No single digit pls, then too OMG THROW FACE MAX LE!

Right now, I don't even dare to think of any possible Distinction in my result, but i would when i see it; I would certainly say: aiya, shld have gotten an A! I know it is so TMD BITCH, but ya! THIS IS ME! Not wanting to do badly, hoping to have did alright and wanting to ace when I did okay!

I am an idealist. According to dictionary, it means that one is guided more by ideals than by practical considerations.

Yes, I believe I am so. And all the ideals that I am following are created by myself. I will have a perception that one should behave in a way according to my understand. And when it did not turn out to be what I thought of, I will be rather uneasy. It's like why are u like this? I think I am demanding too much, as things don't usually go my way!

But that's me!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

It's my favorite girl 21st!! ILU! <3

What kind of career do I really want in the future? Heading into events and management? Advertising? Or some general administrative job? I'm not sure! Given the units I'm taking now, I doubt it be useful or an added advantage to my future career mentioned above. If I were to enter a local uni, I doubt I will be doing all this thinking, as I will take my life as how it goes, accept my fate, and lead a normal life. But right now, since it did not go that way, then maybe I should seriously consider to have a career that I wanted. The pay may not be high, but at least I will be happy doing? Then maybe a few years down the road, I will be sick of this job then decides for a change? Agh, will it be alright?

Turning 21 soon, and idk what I want!

RM CRAZE

The latest is simply AWESOME! With almost equal coverage of every members and lots of FUNNY POINTS! DAEBAK! Hahahahaha IM simply CRAZY!

Random MAX

Seriously speaking, I think I look ugly in all those photos on the left. But I am simply too lazy, tired and sick to do so. ALright, this will do. BYE HP

Obsession w Kpop

I know the Kpop fave started years ago, like when I was still in secondary school! But I just refuse to acknowledge the existence of it until now!

It's RM that makes me crazy over Kpop! I like the members so much that I can now accept someone who is 12 years older than me! Seriously! Thy are just the ideal man I want! Ahh, scream!

But I CAN still differentiate from reality and FAN FIC! So no worries! :)

From RM to IC to Xman, when will I recover from all this?! Haha happy Rolling deep in it! :D

On a double decker

Woohoo, double decker bus! It's been long since I last board onto one, feeling kinda kaixin even though I don't have much memory on it.

Anw, job search is just so hard! I arranged for 3 interviews today, and was thinking of picking the best out of the three, but it turns out that they are picking on me! And I am left with the final one which idk would success anot... Am seriously thinking of giving up and just rot my way through the remaining months till school starts...

Hais. When I see people working in all those big companies, I would wonder whether will I be like them in a few years time. Thoughts set in. Would I be successful next time? What exactly I want? What I really want for a job and life?! I have no idea!

I'm sick of wondering and all the thinking, but what else can I do?

HP

Picnic w clubbers!

Woohoo, since long after we met the last time! And the attendance for the outing is kinda fixed.. Well, jiu zhe yang ba! Went botanic garden in the evening! Chilling successful!! :)

Salted caramel after which! :D chatted alot, well the usual activity! But it was fun! Targeting at the same issue all the time! Will upload the photos soon! Though not many! Here is one of it! ＜3

Exam is over~

YES! After 3 tiring weeks, it's finally over! But the feeling of the "after exam mood" is just not there anymore! Maybe cause I slacked too much towards the end of the exam, cause the spirit just went down! Anymore, there were a total of 5 papers, but most of them are horrible! I think my batch is just cursed or something. Everytime, without fail, Something different from the usual will happen to us! Be it change of syllabus or exam
Format! Tsk! In 5 of the papers, there were like 4 different from the others?! That's crazy alright! I mean from the past uptill 2011, it was similar, why are u changing? Argh!

But no matter what, the exam is over, and I believe that I really tried my best! Therefore, I would cry if I fail any of them! I will emo if I didn't do the same as others, thats norm right!

Need to wait till aug before we can know the result! So Still then, chillax! :)

Exactly 12more hrs to MATH

This is madness! I have not been working as hard as I should for the past 3 days! Oh man, seriously dont uds why am I such a lazy bum on important days like this. After the bloodly math, which I'm not confident about, I will be having soci in like 26hrs? Yup, minus away sleeping and misc activities time, Idk how much I have for memorizing everything in my notes! Right now, I'm flipping through my lecture notes, hoping to find any big discovery, which I have nv seen before! I hope math tmr would not be too tough! I really hope to get a 60, though a 70 would be good, so that my stats would not be pull down!
Even though idk how I fare after my screwed histogram which is like 14 marks! Two hands on the cheeks face!
Shall talk more again, seriously, truly no time for this! I really feel like scolding vulgarities, what I usually do nowadays whenever I'm nervous! :E
TMD!

HP

100th anniversary for TITANIC!

Went to the exhibit over at MBS today! Little did we know that it is actually 100years since the ship sank! How fortunate, no wonder the queue to get the tix is like damn long~

Getting in, you will be able to see the titanic from making to sinking, and eventually conserve! As known to many, visitors will be given a boarding pass which is a real identity of passengers who was on board, be it they survived or perished. Haha, I went w YS and WW, and lucky us, we are the 'first class passenger'! I think quite a number of people got first class passes, as seen from the crowd gathering in front of the first class name list towards the end of the exhibit. My identity is MRS JAMES smth smth. Well, she basically stayed in the most expensive suite on board! Totally rich, so I kind of predicted that she will certainly survive the disaster. Given her gender and class.

The best part in the exhibit to me is certainly the promenade way. It is a walkway on both sides of the ship, the place where ROSE learnt to spit from
JACK if I am not wrong! The exhibit shows the walkway in the night and it is so beautiful! It was as though I'm on board! The mirror on both ends of the walkway make it seems longer. That's is seriously the best part! Another part could have be the grand staircase. But they bounded the area from pro photo shooting, so unless u are taking photo, u cannot go up the stairs. That's so sad right, many would want to imagine themselves coming down from that stairs.

Another memorable place would certainly be the artificial ice berg! It's really cold, but those who fell into the sea of north Atlantic experienced a even colder environment! How sad! T.T

In the exhibit, I read alot of stories about passengers who went aboard. Plenty of them did not really wanted to board the then largest ship on earth, but due to various reasons, major one being the coal strikes, they were transferred to TITANIC. And the one who design and so call created the ship, Andrew smth, was not going on board the last note, because his bosses were sick, and can't go on board! It's all Fated, that's what explain why all these people were on board. They could have not done so, right? But Andrew did not oppose to the decision of having only 20 lifeboats on the ship instead of more, I wonder why initially. But then I realize that it is
Because of his confidence in his airtight doors which made titanic
Partially unsinkable. It was said to be able to contain flooding, was it? Something along that line. He even gave the wrong info to the captain after the ship collided with the iceberg
And 4or5 of the airtight doors was spoiled! ( can't rmb if the value is the correct one). He told that the ship was able to cont her sail with the remaining air tight doors. That was a fatal mistake, but we can't really blame him
Right, I believe he really thought this way, I guess he miscalculated the damage from the collide.

I paid the extra dollars to watch the documentary: Ghosts at the abyss. Recalling, I think I watched similar documentary somewhere else. Anw, it was the documentary where a group of conservers went back to the sinking spot to find out more about the ship. To my surprise, everything seen in the movie are true! I am not sure still about the romance part, but the rest are certainly real. The setting and decoration is true as well. ESP when the ship is sinking, we see a priest together with hundreds of the rest, praying to the god, it's true! They even got the identity of the priest! Also, the band, who continued to perform despite the chaotic situation! All five of them, identities found! Actually many passengers, after falling into the water would have not die if those lifeboats which were not fully seated( which most of them are), went back to rescue them. But then, it is also true, as mention by the guy in the documentary that, it was risky doing so. If u sail back, 1500 people will certainly be swimming towards u, wanting to get onto the boat. Eventually those who were on boat may not survive. Losing one is better than two, I guess it was their thoughts then.

700+ survived and 1500+ perished. What would be the result if there were
More lifeboats and life jackets? If the ship did not collide with the ice berg? If the ship was able to sail successfully across the Atlantic to new York, would history change? Would ship technology be better than it is now? It just set u thinking.

Another miscellaneous issue to think about is the rate of inflation. 100 years ago, $40, price of the 3rd class cabin is approx to $900plus today! That's alot right? 20times?! So we managed to survive 2012, and human cont to live, our money will be smaller by 20times again, will be ard 18,000? Omg! People will need to carry bags around. But i wont be around witness that!

HP hours after the exhibit!

HELLO HAPPINESS

Finally gotten back all my paper today! Well, plenty of stories to talk abt getting back the paper!
Firstly, the process of getting back the paper. Well, people in SIM get serious about their studies when exams draw near. There was a freaking Long queue outside the collection room since 3 days ago! Well, without thinking muchc we joined the long queue. After queuing for what is like 10min, our friend suggested that we can cut his friend's friend's friend's queue! Well, we agreed happily! Little did we know that the friend was at almost the first position of the queue! Omg, totally scare when we pass her our student card, cause I can feel the fury feeling which is developing among the people behind us! What if they screamed at us! God, totally don't dare to have too big a reaction when I got saw my marks! We escaped from the room as soon as we collected all our paper! Scary experience! Next time I shall be good and queue up! :p

Okay, next up, my prelim score. Haha I think I did pretty well, even though I did not pass! Haha but when I see the comment written by the markers, I am totally kaixin! Cause I finally see some light in my exam! Woo~ feel like doing some waves~ hahahaha anw, I am seriously turning into a competitive bitxh! Feeling so exciting when comparing marks with others! Hopefully I can reach my goals eventually! Crossing my fingers! :x

Shall go back to my daily routine! Just 18more days plus 3 exam weeks and I will be few of subject guides, lecture and school for 4 months! Tian ah, life's good!!!

HP

Toughest years in life till now

JC years was seriously the toughest year I have been through, at least till now. In just this years, I shed more tears than I had accumulate over the years. Disappointed with myself, losing goals and aims and eventually losing the ability to reach my goal.

Thinking back, why and how did I land myself in the current state? Well, even though my current state is not that bad, but still it can be better! Would my life changed if I went to a different JC? I wonder.

Made a dozens of mistake, right from the beginning! I have lots to rant About, but certainly not now! Shall do it after exam I suppose!

That's it for now!

HP