To be honest, I am deeply affected by these incident.

First, am I being objective when I made those comments? Everyone has their own working style, so long as they can complete everything in time, the process does not matter.

Though that being said, I still feel for my comments. I do not understand why that rec must be done after the other when it has the earliest SLA, assuming that the SLA of the other is later. Fine, even if both of the recs have the same SLA, I am sure that the data are still incomplete at 2.30PM. If so, why do the other rec first when data is fully in for the first rec? The goal for the team daily is to have everything deliver on time. By allocating your time effectively, you would be able to ensure that not just one, but all of your recs are out on time. Imagine this, or rather do not imagine, it happened. There was an issue with the statements on one of the days. And because you started doing the recs late, you only managed to discover it later and can only tackle it then. And what was the reason for the delay again? Feed issue, manual matching? People will be questioning why is the other similar recs which use the same statements are out, but not yours. Get it?

And yeah right, fuck my problem. It is indeed none of my problem, which is why I did not approach you regarding this. Honestly, if the same thing is happening to someone else in the team, I would definitely tell them about it. Too bad that it is YOU. I am astonished that those comments flowed to you, and I am sorry that it upsets your weekends. My mood got screwed by your comments too. So ya, I will do some reflection regarding gossiping about people. Actually what is worrying more is the fact that you have the thinking of leaving, or is 'stopping' a better word? I am not very sure about what you really mean by that, but I truly and sincerely hope that I would not be the reason for your depart. I am afraid that it will put the team management in a spot.

I will just pretend to not know about the entire thing and behave as per normal going forward. I shall also not share it with anyone else in the office unless necessary. Kind of hard, but I will try. Maybe I am getting too comfortable with the company and the environment that I am cutting slack on my on stage self. I guess it is time to find back the old Ethel who joined 12 months ago, who do not judge others cause she herself does not know much. Is that possible?

On a side note, thanks for making me realize that not everyone is on my side. My current workpalce is not that innocent afterall. Thank you.

Ethel